You don't know how it feels..

You don't know how it feels to be in my shoes for the past 7 months..

You don't know how it feels to be in my shoes now..

You don't know how it feels to wake up everyday,
dreading to go to work because of all the comments on my size/weight..

You don't know how it feels to wear the shawl and literally feel empty spaces that did not use to be there..
You don't know how it feels to have sunken cheeks..

You don't know how it feels to hate looking at myself in the mirror cos I have grown so so thin..

:'(

You don't know how it feels to be questioned as if you were anorexic or bulimic when you're not even guilty of that..

You don't know how it feels to be called names by immature kids and having to pretend to be unaffected when deep inside it hurts really bad..

You don't know how it feels when people easily pass comments that associate you to being too light you can fly or the wind will carry you away..

You don't know how it feels to pretend to smile and be totally cool about it when inside you're hurting badly..
You don't know how it feels to face such insensitive remarks and swallow it almost everyday of my life..

You don't know how it feels to be looking in the mirror and despising the fact that you've grown so thin when you were never this thin before..

You don't know how it feels..
You don't know how it feels..


You don't know how it feels to simply cry it all out at the end of the day..
Pick yourself up and brace yourself for more days of such insensitive remarks and comments that break your self-esteem..
that destroy your self-confidence..
every day..
every minute of your life..

:'(

You.don't.know.how.it.feels.

You don't know how it feels to come to a point where you don't want to meet others for fear of getting that insensitive comment or remark...

:'(

I am bearing a LOT on my shoulders ok?

Do I come across as someone who is free to a point others assume I cannot be bothered or I am too lazy to do certain things?

For the record, I am not at all someone who has time on my hands..
I am the one chasing after time..

I am looking after my kids on my own..
2 very active kids..
Working heavy duty as a teacher on weekdays to a point I have no time to cook on weekdays..
I try my best to cover as much housework as I can..
All on my own!

I am exhausted but I try to never think about my fatigue despite feeling like collapsing at times
Yet there are those who just don't seem to understand or empathise.

So easy to comment on this and that..
So easy to ask me whether I have done this or that without realising I have been doing other things and it is not easy to BE ME.

Shut it already.

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Oh happy day!

It is Saturday!

Oh happy me!
Cos the weekend is here!
:-D

Time to spend precious quality tine with my babies!
NO WORK!
Just playtime and house time with the 2 darlings!

Wheeeee!!!!

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